Sebab memang.

Purpose, Men, Deeds

2012-01-08T03:28:00.000+08:00

Never have I offered the height of my energy to a mass of unknown
Until today

Never have I tip-toed inside
Never have I timidly stolen
The affection and care of the family
Until today

Never have I cared so much
With the liberty of nothing to hide
But never to cut the knot, closely tied

I've learned a hundred
And would yearn to know a thousand more
For never have I been blessed
To meet this Purpose
These Men
These pure Deeds

Laahaula walaa quwwata illabillahil 'aliyyil 'adzeem

God, grant us your protection and care
God, open our eyes to your guidance and light
God, let us have the might

:)

This is for the 20-odd men from whom I have gained so much of what I know I could never ask for. Thank you, may Allah bless you.

Time Line

2012-01-07T16:33:00.000+08:00

I wonder what would have made the difference.

Ah, aren't 'what ifs' the biggest mind fuckers?

Resolutions

2012-01-03T00:42:00.000+08:00

To conquer yourself, you have to know what you want, and try to understand and accept what you need.

Knowing those, try painting a picture; an equilibrium.

Be honest, for lying takes you nowhere.

Be gentle, for you are fragile.

Be kind, for it brings ease to the universe. After all, the universe is also fighting a battle.

Stand and admire your painting now. You may have used a wrong color but that's really okay. Flip for a fresh blank and do it again.

But take time. Understand. Smile more. Laugh more. Love more.

Create what makes you smile,
Laugh at every marvel -- who cares you're alone?
Love.

Be the you that the world still has a place for.

Keep a light heart. In time, it will come.

Like the Wind

2012-01-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

Like the wind that softly blows
Flirting with the brown leaves
Just waiting to fall to the ground

The wind- unseen but ever present
Ever present and ever felt
As it hits the glass panes
That shake with a sound

While the man leaves his chair
To push the windows open to see
Waiting to be swept-
Fallen brown leaves on the ground

Like the wind that takes him off his chair
Like the wind that hits his face as the windows open
Like the wind that gives him something to care and mind
Just like the wind that comes and leaves
Never for him to find.

Incidence #11

2011-12-29T20:11:00.000+08:00

So I haven't taken the train for some time.

It feels good.

How could I forget the 'good views' that I get to lay eyes on.

If only I knew your name.

Far-Away

2011-12-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

By Rames

Grammar

2011-12-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

How about two cents, then?

Dmajor7 on the Church Organ

2011-12-26T21:16:00.000+08:00

Every single distorted guitar line,
Echoing keyboard chords,
Trailing whispered harmonies,
Have been gracefully tainted
By you.

You intended it, didn't you?
I couldn't have possibly known, could I?

I bet you could sense the humor up there, too.

You silly man, you.

**

It is supposed to be just a song, isn't it?

Unsent #11

2011-12-25T05:32:00.000+08:00

My heart still thumps upon seeing your name.

It could've easily been someone else but I know it's you.

I whispered to the cat that I thought you felt warm; and that I've never felt so lonesome.

Sleight of Hand, and Twist of Fate

2011-12-25T05:17:00.000+08:00

Purchasing new CDs gives a liberating feeling.

But you should know that even after a month, I never get past the third song of the U2 album.

You should also know that I'm stupidly confident that I can't have it better than what I had.

Incidence #7

2011-12-25T05:08:00.000+08:00

I won't say "it's you"
And I won't say "it's me"

But reality is, you can't stop it either.

*snorts through laughter*

Gotta do laundry fast.

Malam (Gerhana) Bulan

2011-12-13T03:52:00.000+08:00

The painful truth that hits you, revealing that "Nasib baik ada awak" is not applicable anymore.

I just need some sleep. Remind me to buy some bena or sedillix today.

Undefined

2011-12-12T05:13:00.000+08:00

Kalau nak dikenang-kenang;
Dua minggu lalu,
Tiga bulan lalu,
Empat tahun lalu.

Caranya sama,
Suaranya sama,
Pandangannya sama-
well mungkin sekarang lebih degil, tapi tetap- sama.
Vocabnya sama, maklumlah takda masa nak baca buku.
Gelaknya sama kuat,
Senyumnya sama lebar,
Air mata..hmm. Sama.

Ini adalah sama. Sekian.

**

If it breaks, you put it back together.
If it doesn't work, you try again.
If that doesn't work, you chuck it away. You get a replacement.
If you can't find any, you'll learn to not need it.
If you're lucky, you'll realize you really don't.

Something else breaks and then there you go again. It gets theoretically easier with time.

Would I be out of line; if I said I miss you?

Incidence #6

2011-12-12T04:58:00.000+08:00

It's annoying (plus silly) that when I can't sleep at night,
out of the hundreds of laughter that I've heard,
it is yours that is resounding.

Go away. Do the math. Shoo shoo.

Kindness

2011-12-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

If there's one thing that I'd like to hold on to now,

out of the many that I thought I should;

It is this:

You don't have to be a good leader.
You don't have to be a good driver.
You don't have to be a good musician.
You don't have to be a good follower.

You just have to be a good human being.

I've learned a thing or two these past few days.

Terharu :')

Ghosts

2011-11-23T04:37:00.000+08:00

I've just (just!) learned that there's no urgent need for us to be smart.

We only need to be kind.

:)

Incidence #5

2011-11-21T04:44:00.003+08:00

Ah, so you had lots to tell and you told a lot!

Which left me fantasizing like a six-year-old dealing with fairly complex life issues.

Everything happens for a reason / Semua yang berlaku ada hikmah-nya

This one's for you, and this one's for the road.

Ice-breaking

2011-11-21T04:32:00.003+08:00

My liking for you is deteriorating.

It's not that I force, or even intend it to happen. Putting it your way, there's a stable rate and pattern to it.

I don't fancy being introduced to anger, I'd have liked to keep my records clean.

But thanks anyway. You've always been thoughtful that way.

(Not a) Warning Sign

2011-11-06T04:05:00.002+08:00

It feels different.

Free and empty. Or was it lonely? :)

It just got to me that there is not exact word for the noun 'rindu' in the Queen's language. I wonder why that is.

Incidence #4

2011-11-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just don't know what I'm doing.

"Namun aku masih tetap tersenyum."

:)

Selamat hari raya aidil adha.

Incidence #3

2011-11-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

*

"Takpalah kalau tak fikir lagi. Kumpul harta dulu. *pause* Tapi jangan sampai yang lelaki tak buat apa apa."

*

Wow. Having so much to discover is liberating. *grins*

*

And tomorrow, hmm tomorrow. *grins* soft eyes.

Yeah by the way I am on my way of fulfilling my competency. *thumbs up*

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Mind Fucks

2011-10-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

Ah, kalau nak difikir panjang panjang pun tak ada hujung-nya.

Yes, I will look good in and with all those things.

Never really had them have I?

Maril caril.

Caril~ (breathy gaya Jepp)

Awaiting the grand arrival of MGC

2011-10-30T17:23:00.000+08:00

The universe is unimaginably huge and you're just a small speck of er, thing.

Surely, surely there's a big mystery behind it all.

Make the most of it!

:)

Incidence #3

2011-10-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

Gua ada eye candy.

Lu ada? Heheheheh.

Soft eyes, soft eyes. Dammit!

Incidence #2

2011-10-26T14:13:00.000+08:00

I want to know where you came from
Why you're here
What you've done

I don't wish to learn your decisions
But pray do tell the reasons behind them

I know I cannot be a part of your world
But those eyes, those eyes speak a thousand words

And I can't stay put.

Mana Oh Mana

2011-10-24T10:42:00.000+08:00

Tiada yang sempurna di dunia
Terjatuh panjatlah semula
Tetapi apa gunanya
Jika tiada akhirnya

Ucaplah seindah indahnya
Tapi kelak akan berubah
Nampak ke arah bahagia
Itu semua di dunia

It brought tears to my eyes watching it live in that hall full of memories.

And you were just there next to me.

Good song, Encik Aizat. *smiles*

Unsent #10

2011-10-24T01:04:00.000+08:00

Awak,

Malam ni bintang banyak dowh!

Hehe.

I hope you don't miss them. Look out your window okay?

Life is good. Indeedio. :)

Incidence #1

2011-10-23T17:47:00.000+08:00

A couple sitting, sipping coffee at a table.

One, staring into a laptop screen.

The other, reading a text message and smiling shyly.

I find it strangely amusing.

laughs

2011-10-22T17:15:00.000+08:00

"I believe that people cannot ever change."

I'm starting (and will continue) to think that you were referring to yourself.

Tsk tsk.

Let's go back to monitoring how my 13 awesome men are doing.

:)

When life makes the decisions...

2011-10-17T13:29:00.000+08:00

...Without you knowing what is happening.

It would be quite fair to say that I lost it due to my job.

It would be fair, but I wouldn't exactly say it.

Fair to say that I lost it due to my job. Hence I'm only left with the job now. Should I get everything out of it or leave it out of spite?

This is very unhealthy for my mental state.

Unsent #9

2011-10-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

Awak,

Nak tahu tak, dua malam dekat utp, tak ada satu Bintang pun yang sambut saya. Intai intai pun tidak. Mungkin mereka semua merajuk dengan saya sebab saya terlupa tentang cantiknya kelipan Bintang. But I know they're still around :)

Yang satellite sebiji tu ada lah hehe.

Kosong

2011-10-16T15:56:00.000+08:00

Kolam yang ada titi dekat academic complex tu kosong
Meja hijau dekat Ameeth tu pun kosong
Hidayah, lagi lah kosong.

:)

Tears

2011-10-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

Dekha tenu pehli pehli baar ve
Hone laga dil beqaraar ve
Rabba mainu kee ho gaya
Dil jaaniye, haai mainu kee ho gaya

Sunke teri baatein sone yaar ve
Maahi mainu tere naal pyaar ve
Haai main mar jaawa
Dil jaaniye, haai main mar jaawa

What's beyond there?

2011-10-15T19:12:00.000+08:00

Pasti dan Mati

2011-10-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

Perempuan - perempuan,

Janganlah engkau menyerah diri dan berserah hati pada kata - kata dan bahasa.

Ya, memang akan ada waktu yang datang bila seluruh zahirmu inginkan hanya satu. Pada waktu itu, segala yang baik terus menjadi kepastian. Tinggal lagi, kamu hanya perlu senyum gembira. Sangat mudah.

:)

Tetapi ingatlah, janganlah sesekali engkau menyerah dan berserah pada yang lain, selain Tuhanmu.

Tak akan ada yang pasti lagi selain penghabisan.

Sape

2011-10-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

The sound of the sape is ringing in my ears.

A blanketed moment,
We sat in a sphere.

The sound of sape trailing us all the way back.
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Someone Like You

2011-09-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
"Don't forget me", I begged
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Who would have known :)
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Unsent #8

2011-09-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

Awak,

Hari ni saya belajar: kalau kita ber-prasangka buruk, buruk yang bakal kita duga. Kalau kita ber-prasangka baik, baik yang kita terima.

I have a thousand apologies. If ten was brought down to four, I was responsible for the loss of five. If ten was brought down to eight, I have nothing but the reasons to hold on.

Awak penat ya hari ni? Tidur-lah. Semoga damai alam semesta menyelimuti-mu :)

Faizal's Selamat Malam

2011-09-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

Ah. Words at times make a huge mess out of things. I'm out of words for tonight.

(Cumanya, tubuh yang telah tertulis nama-mu ini ingin menyatakan Cinta.)

Bonded

2011-09-24T03:26:00.000+08:00

How the two souls, two minds and two hearts get so close to each other;

How a person let him or herself be so transparent to the other;

I have no answers; only hope, and faith.

You've seen all of what I am that God has allowed me to show.

Unsent #7

2011-09-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

Munajat Cinta

2011-09-24T01:00:00.000+08:00

Lights will guide you home. And ignite your bones.

"Be aware that what you chase might be not worth catching,
If you cheat for it, you will come to resent it,
If you steal it, it will haunt you,
What you worked hard for may become the sweetest thing in life."

I learned the hard way.

And I will try to fix you. I promise.

I feel relaxed. At peace. Hopeful. Calm.

On a different note, fuckers can go screw themselves up. Yeah, I've caught up a little bit with the Abdullah Afiq manner of writing. *grins*

Back on the first note, I really do, feel calm. And I shall work hard. *grins*

La haula wala quwwata illa bil-Lahil'aliyyil'adzim.

Tiada daya dan kekuatan melainkan dengan kekuasaan Allah Tuhan yang Maha Tinggi lagi Maha Agung.

Received #1

2011-09-21T02:05:00.003+08:00

Selamat malam.

Unsent #6

2011-09-19T19:48:00.001+08:00

Awak,

I have lost a lot of weight since you last saw me. My bones are actually sticking out! That's a first :)

Maybe I would put on a great purple Barney costume so you would recognize me when we meet; if we meet.

Bukan-kah 'kalau' itu satu perkataan yang bahaya?

Hati dan Malam dan Yang Aneh

2011-09-18T03:39:00.004+08:00

Setiap kali Hati berpeluang untuk berbicara :)

Afiq, tunggu sekejap, pleast.

Of Bright-Lady-Managers and Memories

2011-09-17T19:19:00.002+08:00

There is always a piece of memory that you sometimes so dearly wish to forget;
At least, I know I do.

You thought you're okay
"Hey yeah, why not" for a couple of days.

Someone might have done you wrong,
You might have lied to your mother,
You might have killed a cat?
Might have been a true sinner.

And I, I am here; unyielding.
He used to say to me, repeatedly, "This too, shall pass".

And I, I am here;
Left to say to myself, repeatedly, "This too, shall pass".

Because the manager is a bright lady.

Fuh. Mungkin obat yang Do Re Mi jual tu sahaja yang boleh membantu.

Does this moment happen to you too?

2011-09-17T12:49:00.002+08:00

The flame has long ago ceased burning,
And what you're holding on to is the ashes;

Ashes that give no light
Ashes that cloud the fight.

No longer knowing where you're going
Failing to separate hopes, dreams and reality.

**

Aku memohon keampunan kepada Allah Tuhan Yang Maha Esa.

If I was meant to have a companion,
Let him be my companion.
If I was meant to do it alone,
Let Faith be my master.

My Little Victory

2011-09-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

When people avoid,
When people do not admit,
When people ignore.

You know it's a sweet, sweet, sickly-yet-much-needed victory.

Ahh, what a day, what a day! *grins*

p/s: And you, young lady, please do better than that!

Journey

2011-09-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

Kau genggam Hati-ku
Dan kau tuliskan nama-mu;

La haula walaquwwata illa bil-Lah.

The Anchor

2011-09-06T09:49:00.000+08:00

Thank you for being the Anchor.
Ships always return, Seas will fight to meet the Shore.

While the Sky keeps it's distance,
My Heart remains open.

Thank you for being my Anchor.

Unsent #5

2011-09-04T04:17:00.000+08:00

Berani kau curi Hati saya dengan senang senang ya?

Terima kasih. *senyum*

(Note: Ini bukan exchange of words dengan En Ahmad Pg)
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Malam Raya Ke-5

2011-09-04T03:45:00.000+08:00

If you're weeping
I wouldn't say 'don't'
With belief,
Your Heart will simply open up.

Kan tuhan itu Maha Adil?

It's all that we have to turn to. Simply :)

Unsent #4

2011-09-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

Awak,

*sigh*

I need you at this moment, more than ever.

Unsent #3

2011-09-02T15:16:00.000+08:00

Love is just like digestion. Gets fucked up sometimes. Needs stimulant at other times. Just doesn't work the way you think it should at those times. But it should in fact come naturally, and when it does, there's no describing how good and complete you would feel. Like a day with the clearest skies, like your favorite song coming on out of nowhere; and all you feel is ease and bliss.

*

How are you today, Awak?

Dah berak? Oops :)

Are you lonesome; tonight.

2011-09-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

Pray tell me;
Have all the memories been kept hidden?
Would the Heart still aches if this was a dream?

Unsent #2

2011-08-31T00:42:00.000+08:00

Awak,

Saya tak mahu melebih-lebih. Cuma untuk buat awak tersenyum.

(Oh Tuhan, tolong!)

Unsent #1

2011-08-30T03:22:00.001+08:00

Awak,

Boleh tak kalau malam ni saya nak duduk diam diam, dan ada dengan awak, diam diam?

(Kosong)

Mimpi Semalam

2011-08-29T17:58:00.000+08:00

Semalam aku bermimpi
Kamu ragu
Aku tahu

Mimpiku semalam
Terlalu panjang
Fasal semalam

*

"Kamu mungkin akan lena bila sedang bekasih-kasih, tapi bangun kamu bila matamu dibuka, dan hatimu terjaga."

*

Semalam aku bermimpi
Diberi iphone
Hilang blackberry!

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Ahi hi hi

2011-08-28T03:45:00.000+08:00

Malam yang sepi-pi-pi
Saya hiburkan hati-ti-ti
Hati yang koyak-yak-yak
Pak Mat jual tempoyak-yak-yak
Tempoyaknya basi-si-si
Saya hiburkan hati-ti-ti
Hati yang koyak-yak-yak
Pak Mat jual tempoyak-yak-yak
Tempoyaknya basi-si-si
Saya hiburkan hati-ti-ti
.......

Well you get the point.

Ahi hi hi

2011-08-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

Privacy

2011-08-21T05:16:00.000+08:00

There are two kinds of people who change their online passwords:

Those who are wise enough about the internet and it's uses.

And those with something to hide.

But there could be a possible third kind.

On Catching a Writer

2011-07-25T01:34:00.003+08:00

No regrets, baby. No regrets.

"You were fat!"
"You hair was hilarious!"

I am beginning to understand the meaning of a relationship,
this one, at the very least
and God, I am humbled.

**

Songs make me dream about yesterday
Wise words make me brave for tomorrow
The writer helps me put the scattered pieces together

I caught a writer and had him in my net
I caught a writer when I was soaking wet
I caught a writer; then we warmed ourselves
I caught a writer and he's playing an elf
I caught a writer who yearns to be set free
But my writer- he's writing about me
I caught a writer, carrying a heavy, heavy sack
I caught a writer who will be coming back.

**

ttfnftnfnntnfntfnntnfntf
:)

Second Chance

2011-07-24T18:13:00.003+08:00

I've been too idle but somehow I'm still breathing.

I've forgotten -- no, ignored -- the beauties of life,

the people that I have around me

the ones who actually care

the ones who would smile to themselves when I give them a good news

the ones who would worry when I share with them a problem

who help me up when I stumble.

I've blocked the wonderful views of nature

in trying to get to work in time,

in trying to get home in time,

I've been ignorant towards the stars that remain

the sky that promises weather.

But I'm still breathing,

please forgive me God.

Definition

2011-03-30T14:02:00.000+08:00

–noun

a person or thing that swings.

Slang . a lively, active, and modern person whose activities are fashionable or trendy.

Slang .

a person who indulges in promiscuous sex.

a person who engages in the exchanging of spouses for sexual activities.

Two Does It, But One Starts It.

2010-12-14T02:21:00.003+08:00

Stop leaving small change on my table.

They're going to amount to something.

And I eventually have to do deal with the sum.

Flushing the Wetness of Water

2010-12-09T00:23:00.002+08:00

You forget of the wetness of rain
until the drops fall on your face
quite mercilessly,
drip drip.

You'll forget it too
if you stayed inside,
just sitting at the dry side of the rain-spattered window,
just staring through.

*

Flushing things out of your system isn't the easiest of tasks!

*

Come out for a while,
come out
I will help you get dry.

Help! (You know I need somebody) Help!

2010-11-29T02:49:00.004+08:00

Used-tos clash greatly with goddamn-forevers.

I am struggling to find the balance, if it exists.

Explain yourself.

We're On A Mission

2010-11-26T03:21:00.000+08:00

For You :)

101 #5

2010-11-22T00:29:00.003+08:00

Things don't always happen the way you wish they would.

Really.

If you find yourself walking down a different path
than everybody else
than the one you think you should
than the one you're expected to;

Fear not,
fret not,
curse not.

There is a lesson that He wants you to learn. A meaning, to uncover.

Do not be afraid and embarrassed to admit your own flaws.
It is the only way to learn.

Look deep,
for it will be most worthy.

Ends Do Not Meet Everytime

2010-11-17T01:15:00.003+08:00

I was standing there at one time
a time not too long ago
at the best of my will
at the worst of how to feel.

Some things are too out of line
because ends do not meet;
not everytime.

Haiku Jam 3

2010-11-13T03:02:00.002+08:00

Sarung sweater
tarik comforter
'til the morning after

Good night.

Pesanan ~~pakcik~~:
Sincerity comes hand in hand with honesty. Be sincere at all times. It's perfectly doable.

For a clear conscience. For a light heart.

Good morning :)

Warm Towel

2010-11-03T01:30:00.004+08:00

Not wanting to miss a thing
had given birth to an unforeseen
and altogether misplaced
miss.

*

Fresh towels now, fresh towels.
Warm indeed, still
but surely, smelling good.

:)

Kita Ini Tetamu Senja

2010-10-25T23:35:00.013+08:00

Kita datang ini hanya sebagai tetamu senja

Bila cukup detik kembalilah
Kita kepadanya
Kita datang ini kosong tangan dada
Bila pulang nanti bawa dosa bawa pahala

Pada tetamu yang datang dan
Kenal jalan pulang
Bawalah bakti mesra kepada
Tuhan kepada Insan
Pada tetamu yang datang
Dan lupa jalan pulang
Usahlah derhaka pula
Pada Tuhan kepada insan

Bila kita lihat manusia lupa tempat
Atau segera sesat puja darjat
Puja pangkat
Segera kita insaf kita ini punya kiblat
Segera kita ingat kita ini punya tekad

Bila kita lihat manusia terbiar larat
Hingga mesti merempat ke laut biru
Ke kuning darat
Harus kita lekas sedar penuh pada tugas
Harus kita tegas sembah
Seluruh rasa belas

Kita datang ini satu roh satu jasad
Bila pulang nanti bawa bakti padat berkat
Kita datang ini satu roh satu jasad
Bila pulang nanti bawa bakti padat berkat!

A. Samad Said

Pink

2010-10-14T11:15:00.003+08:00

That bright vision -
against white bricks -
in the center -

took me by great surprise

brought me comforting pleasure

gave me a good headache.

Rargh~

Oh What Could Be Better

2010-10-12T01:43:00.002+08:00

I see them red orange
flowers blooming
silly clouds roaming
not threatening but wanting
us to hold hands,
dancing.

Going around singing,
oh what could be better
than singing singing, under the sun
shining.

Atop the hill so high
greens so vast, just us
only us
but never you mind.

Lai lai differentiate.

2010-10-10T12:37:00.002+08:00

I can't differentiate between your sarcasm and your genuine wonder. So I'm just gonna let it pass.

Let it pass.

But I'm ticking.

You can't differentiate between my guilty pleasures and my needs.

Oh wait, you can. Heh much.

Conflagrate

2010-10-09T01:04:00.002+08:00

A wooden stool
and chilly breeze
the doors all locked

A silent picture
brushing
tugging
aching.

Rosak-ishly

2010-09-29T23:29:00.001+08:00

Rosak in a good way i guess
rosak di dalam pegangan tangah awak
rosak di dalam lingaran animasi awak
rosak di dalam kekaguman awak pada bintang
pendek kata, kalau belum tutup mata
rosak rosak rosak.

Naaanana nananana (as in muchly).

2010-08-20T05:17:00.006+08:00

I shall start with a smile
for such careless laughter!
such innocence
such softness, kept hidden.

A walking silhouette
that sang a few words,
excuse a sudden cry -
just passing by.

Creeping in
brushing past
a touch -
bright eyes.

I shall end with a smile.

Rargh~

Ilaiminati

2010-08-16T02:39:00.002+08:00

Memasuki dunia tanpa musim tempat kau dapat tertawa, tapi tak seluruh gelak tawamu, dan menangis, tapi tak sehabis semua airmatamu.

Lepaskan nafas panjang
tenang,
tenang.

Maka bila engkau bekerja dengan cinta
Engkau sesungguhnya tengah menambatkan dirimu
Dengan wujudnya kamu, wujud manusia lain
Dan wujud Tuhan.

The Littlest Things

2010-08-10T10:46:00.002+08:00

....show themselves when you expect them the least.

:)

I am still out of words.

With love,
have a brilliant day, all of you.

Sweet Breeze

2010-07-30T06:03:00.003+08:00

Darkly the night glows
gently the wind sings
the harmony of sweet breeze

A twinkle of a star
or two;
one, I give to you

Come,
let the trees whisper
as the breeze whistles
ever so sweetly.

Lain Dunia

2010-07-28T03:13:00.002+08:00

Kurasakan, kuterlena di putihnya nuansa
Yang kau lukis dalam pesona diri
Sisi batinku, sisi batinmu terpendam di alurnya
Tak ada tegur sapa antara kita

Media dunia membawa terbang tawa ceria
Teruraikan nada rasa
Terpendam dalam jiwa

Menarilah, biar sejenak
Bernyanyilah, bahagiakan hati

Bentangan jarak, meringkas khayal
Menggairahkan arti hidupku
Walau hatiku, hatimu takkan bertemu
Betapa mungkin dekat dirimu atau kukenali
Biarkan semua wajar adanya

Menarilah, biar sejenak
Bernyanyilah, bahagiakan hati

Padi

Come What May

2010-07-25T01:32:00.003+08:00

I might have been ignorant
which full contentment could warrant
but right now
this is how.

**

Hati yang terbuka
bukan membuang rasa
cuma menerima senyuman
yang penuh keikhlasan.

Wondrous

2010-07-20T04:30:00.003+08:00

Stolen glimpses are wonderful and heartbreaking,
when you yearn for left or right
and it was but too straight.

Menarilah, biar sejenak. Please :)

Cure

2010-07-19T05:16:00.007+08:00

A lot of sickness has been going around.

When in doubt, always always let it out, ~~and~~ don't let it in.

One thing stirring in your mind,
another growing in your heart,
keep it
dwell upon it
and find yourself in a rut.

Go on, have the conversation. It is more than often not as bad as you deemed it would be.

Have the conversation, but not with the subject.
What does it know save itself?

Have a conversation. It is always better than you thought it could be.

Plus, a lot of sickness has been going around.

:)

i carry your heart with me

2010-07-15T03:03:00.003+08:00

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret that nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Light En Su Bolsillo

2010-07-08T03:19:00.005+08:00

When I thought I would not,
when I said I could not,
I had a dream!

Anyhow.

It's quite delighting how something that lights up quite like fire seems to work with a switch. There might even be an on/off button on it.

While it is on, I shall take my time. I am aware that I won't ever be tall enough to reach the switch :)

The Intern :p

2010-07-06T19:23:00.002+08:00

Where do we go from here?

2010-06-22T02:50:00.001+08:00

Decisions, decisions.

:)

A Lover's Call

2010-06-12T17:35:00.003+08:00

...Do you have memory of the day we met, when the halo of your spirit surrounded us, and the Angels of Love floated about, singing the praise of the soul's deed?

Do you recollect our sitting in the shade of the branches, sheltering ourselves from humanity, as the ribs protect the divine secret of the heart from injury?

Remember you the trails and forest we walked, with hands joined, and our heads leaning against each other, as if we were hiding ourselves within ourselves?

Recall you the hour I bade you farewell, and the maritime kiss you placed on my lips? That kiss taught me that joining of lips in love reveals heavenly secrets which the tongue cannot utter!

That kiss was introduction to a great sigh, like the Almighty's breath that turned earth into man.

That sigh led my way into the spiritual world announcing the glory of my soul; and there it shall perpetuate until again we meet.

**

Sail your smile into the air; it will reach and enliven me! breathe your fragrance into the air; it will sustain me!

Where are you, me beloved?

Oh, how great is Love!

And how little am I!

Kahlil Gibran

Defining is hard - or I'm just opting for Hide & Seek

2010-06-12T01:07:00.006+08:00

My only point is;
going crazy for a person
feeling that aching longing
is simply not for the weak.

By the way, the weak, by definition, would be those without the man-ego.

I would never say that I am weak. So help me define this state please, anyone at all?

But I don't know what comes after the thunder or the storm --
especially not in this crazy weather we're having these days.
I don't know, but perhaps knowing would be too difficult.
Admittedly, it would scare me.

And on a more positive note, perhaps there is no knowing,
because it's never written until it is done :)

**

Oh just I miss the heat.
Ironic, you would think, what with the weather and all.

Talk About Being Stoned

2010-06-03T15:49:00.002+08:00

The balloons, the flowers, the Love. Ish.

Waiting

2010-05-30T05:12:00.006+08:00

I am left-
perhaps just into the quiet night
but always hoping for something more

Now I’m having the squeams
while the silliest things
are flapping around in my brain
and I try not to dream
of the impossible schemes
that swim around
wanna drown me in sync

I wonder if this is paying the price
or it's part of what has been in store
I raise this glass of tears
for not knowing what I'm waiting for

Regardless Of

2010-05-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

Spot the Difference

2010-05-29T15:02:00.002+08:00

There wasn't any wind when we wanted to go kite-flying;
how is that my fault?

Apa-apa lah. Deal with it.

It doesn't always go a certain way, especially when it's for two different people.

2010-05-27T01:55:00.003+08:00

It's much scarier to rely on my running (away) ability and my stamina
(and consider the shocks that come with my own screaming) in an open fight
than to rely on my wanting to smash the opponent right on where it hurts the most
equipped with always the perfect weapon
until, well, until the game's over.

And that is why I prefer Bomber Man (or Dig Dug) over Pac Man you see.

If you were a sailboat, I would sail you to the shore.

2010-05-24T03:58:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I believe in fate
but the chances we create
always seem to ring more true.

You took a chance on loving me,
I took a chance on loving you.

A Toast (IV)

2010-05-22T02:53:00.002+08:00

Good night, Love.

*clink*

Layers

2010-05-21T16:07:00.004+08:00

What may be you
is actually just life
which I,
apparently left
without choice,
have to peel
layer by thin layer
until the seeds show.

What may be me,
is actually just you,
ripping layer by thick layer
picturing one fine day
the flower would grow.

Sebab memang.

Purpose, Men, Deeds

Time Line

Resolutions

Like the Wind

Incidence #11

Far-Away

Grammar

Dmajor7 on the Church Organ

Unsent #11

Sleight of Hand, and Twist of Fate

Incidence #7

Malam (Gerhana) Bulan

Undefined

Incidence #6

Kindness

Ghosts

Incidence #5

Ice-breaking

(Not a) Warning Sign

Incidence #4

Incidence #3

Mind Fucks

Awaiting the grand arrival of MGC

Incidence #3

Incidence #2

Mana Oh Mana

Unsent #10

Incidence #1

*laughs*

When life makes the decisions...

Unsent #9

Kosong

Tears

What's beyond there?

Pasti dan Mati

Sape

Someone Like You

Unsent #8

Faizal's Selamat Malam

Bonded

Unsent #7

Munajat Cinta

Lights will guide you home. And ignite your bones.

Received #1

Unsent #6

Hati dan Malam dan Yang Aneh

Of Bright-Lady-Managers and Memories

Does this moment happen to you too?

My Little Victory

Journey

The Anchor

Unsent #5

Malam Raya Ke-5

Unsent #4

Unsent #3

Are you lonesome; tonight.

Unsent #2

Unsent #1

Mimpi Semalam

Ahi hi hi

Ahi hi hi

Privacy

On Catching a Writer

Second Chance

Definition

swing·er

Two Does It, But One Starts It.

Flushing the Wetness of Water

Help! (You know I need somebody) Help!

We're On A Mission

101 #5

Ends Do Not Meet Everytime

Haiku Jam 3

Warm Towel

Kita Ini Tetamu Senja

Pink

Oh What Could Be Better

Lai lai differentiate.

Conflagrate

laughs