Monday, December 28, 2015


  1. Aitai (I want to see you)
  2. Aenakute samishii (I feel lonely that we don't see each other)
  3. Hayaku koewo kikitai na (I want to hear your voice very soon)
  4. Ima, kimino kotowo kangaeteita (I was just thinking about you)
  5. Aerukana (Can I see you?)
  6. Kaoga mitai na (I want to see your face)
  7. Aitaku nacchatta (I suddenly want to see you)
  8. Sukoshi demo aetara ureshii na (I would be happy to see you even a short period of time)
  9. Mata aitai ne (Let's see each other soon)
  10. Oaidekinaku narunowa samishii desu (I will be sad not to be able to see you)

So many ways to say it. And you, of course, know what this is.

P/s: Is it wrong to kill a mosquito?

Saturday, December 26, 2015

Haiku #2

Let me
Not be

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Taking Notes

I was given a very good advice:
"Jangan cepat sangat melatah".

Ika, let's take notes together.

Keeping Warm

Monday, November 30, 2015

Everything's The Matter

Oh, well.
Perhaps later.

Friday, November 27, 2015


What do we say
when we know that we have said
a little too much?

What do we ask
when we know that we have heard answeres
a little too soon?

How do we listen
when we know that our fears are whispering
a little too loud?

Tuesday, September 22, 2015


I wanted to see fully
Not missing any point behind
Not wanting to repeat
And repeat
And repeat
What I did not see before

But there I went yet again
Letting what's not enough about me
Make you feel all alone


It is never your fault.
When I see you again, you shall see a smile
because you deserve nothing less
and all that is more.

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Haiku #1

Buka Ansys
Tulis thesis
Oh you, I miss!

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Two Halves

"What have we done to each other?
What will we do?"
-Gillian Flynn

Today I see shades of pink and blue.

I realized that we have been conditioned to see the glass only as half-full or half-empty.
Either half-full.
Or half-empty.

We would know that both are true, though
if we were not too smug (oh, yes)
to cling onto just one.

Friday, August 14, 2015


The sound of the word "Love"
at the end of your sentence,
coming out so naturally;
like it is the only sound that completes a string of words.

Saturday, July 4, 2015


"But on and on
From the moment I wake
To the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side
Just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line
Just to see if you care."

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

After Glow

"You are better than whatever came before,
Without you here my heart's broken to the core."

Monday, May 11, 2015

Sempurna Itu Ada Dalam Setiap Ruang dan Waktu

Katakan tujuh itu sempurna.

Bila kosong, rayukan yang satu.
Bila ada satu, mohonkan yang dua.
Bila ada dua, inginkan yang tiga.
Bila ada tiga, angankan yang empat.
Bila ada empat, citakan yang lima.
Bila ada lima, mimpikan yang enam.
Bila ada enam, kejarkan yang tujuh.

Bila cukup, lepaskan semua.
Dalam genggam tak tinggal sisa.
Harapan pecah hati berkaca.
Tertanya-tanya, Tuhan, bagaimana?


Kenapa kita tak bersyukur?

Friday, May 1, 2015


I suck at playing by ear.
Can I play with your ear instead?

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Precious Moments

Silence at first
before the light breaths
then the quickened pace
of the first sounds of sleep
urgently as if it has stood in line for too long
then the soft murmurs of passion and fears
finally drifting off
into the most beautiful, intimate rhythm.

Thank you for the present.


Wednesday, April 22, 2015

They Said All You Need Is Love

Recall how many times the words
"How hard can it be?" came into your
mind or slipped between your lips when
you just couldn't get why people behaved
the way they did.

The next time it happens, try this:
Think of the hardest thing you have
ever had to do, the heaviest feeing you
have ever had to hold.

Then tell yourself, "Maybe it's that hard".

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Baizulikha (and Little Maryam)

"Sometimes you may arrive at a
path that needs you to leap forward.
In this case, take a few steps back,
prepare yourself for the jump.

Glad to come back home."

Teach Me How To Love

What if it is just a word
That we often use to replace
The feelings and thoughts that we are too tired, scared, unsure of
To admit

When the water freezes into ice
Then melts and drowns our shared existence
What is this ache
That leads me back to you

How do you give
Without anticipating a return
How do you act
Without expecting a reaction

Why am I waiting for that which I do not recognize
What creates the smile
Then leaves it in the end, agonized

There is an echo between your heart and mine
That keeps me looking up above
Come and find me through noise and silence
Tear me apart and teach me how to love


Somewhere in between
everything will be alright
everything is fucked up
and let's die.

You were amused by the word.

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

(She's So) Heavy

Some see more of what is in front of them.
Some feel more of what is inside.

What do you see? (Do you see me?)
What do you feel? (Do you feel this?)

"I want you
I want you so bad
it's driving me mad
it's driving me mad."

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Delivered #2

The rain falls
and I feel
you here.

I have not told you enough
how much I love seeing the smile
on your face.


Monday, April 13, 2015

Threatened Smile

I think about you constantly
And I know you think of me too
But I wonder if you still smile
When you do

How was your day?


Thursday, March 26, 2015


You seldom remember,
and hardly ever notice
the things that you do naturally.

(But of course, you still do them. Surprise.)

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Delivered #1

I miss you.


Monday, March 16, 2015

First Version

There was something in your voice that said,
"You're thinking too much about this."

And there was more when you said,
"Don't worry," with a smile.

Trusting actually feels good.
Thank you.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

The Right Thing

The right time to do the right thing
is when you realize that you need
to do it.

Not realizing that sooner is alright.
Not doing it when the time comes,

Tuesday, February 24, 2015


A huge signboard
pointing to so many directions
drowning me with choices
tangling me in routes
keeping me still --
until you.

I know now
what I must do
for I know
where I want to be --
with you.

Thursday, February 12, 2015


Let them purr and let them roar.
Let them sink their teeth some more.

It is their nature. 

Tuesday, January 13, 2015


We are far and near
Every inch and every corner
Wanting you right here

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Love Knows Not Its Own Depth Until The Hour Of Separation

A knot in the stomach
Everytime we wish goodnight
Your warm smile says it's alright
This is just for a little while

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Time Is A Flying Bullet

Oh, hampir terlupa;
Selamat tahun baru!


"I have a feeling that the Earth is going to destroy reasoning from them."

Everything exists in harmony.

If something does not make sense,
it doesn't mean that it won't,
it just means that it hasn't. 

If someone could give me some idea 
about the reasons for my grand laziness 
and winning procrastination,
I welcome them with a smile. 

Before the Earth really does destroy all reasoning,
it is time, 
it is always time,
and the time is always right,
to start and to continue. 

*swallows de-procrastination(?) pills*