Monday, December 22, 2014


So much to see
When you roll them up carefully
Lips curving into a smile
So very slightly

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Little Rain Drops

The day moves slowly,
silently -
as little rain drops fall softly,
knowing the embrace
that awaits in the ground.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Punching Bag

Punch hard
Punch with all might
What could be so bad
It tears open
You sew it back

Sunday, September 21, 2014


My baby
is coming



"I still want to drown
whenever you leave
please teach me gently
how to breathe."

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Hard To Concentrate

"Want to treasure the rest of your days here and
give you pleasure in so many ways dear and
finally you have found something perfect and
finally you have found yourself
with me."

Wednesday, September 10, 2014


Manusia tidak punya kuasa
ke atas kepastian,
dan hanya ada secebis kemampuan
untuk memastikan.

Apa yang ada pada manusia
adalah pilihan.
Pilihan untuk terus mempertahan,
atau untuk merelakan.
Pilihan untuk terus dipenjara ketakutan,
atau untuk bebas mengambil langkah.
Pilihan untuk terus bermasam muka,
atau untuk senyum ketawa.

Sentiasa punya pilihan.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Who Wants To Talk?

Let me tell you a story
at the risk
of everything.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Plus One

They ask, "Who is the lucky guy?"
I say, "I am the luckiest girl."

Friday, August 29, 2014

There He Is


I am happy.


Letting go of reasons why something cannot work.
And finding one reason that it will.

As it has been.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

(Soal Kamu) Soal Hati

Ukuran rupa,
Peraturan bahasa,
Ilmu dihisab,
Sebab musabab.

Bukan, bukan soal itu.

Menang kalah,
Betul dan salah,
Hasil berkongsi,
Untung dan rugi.

Bukan, bukan soal itu.

Peneman Jiwa,
Tunas Cinta,
Hidup dan mati,
Ini soal Hati.

Friday, August 22, 2014

"Have I known you before?"

There is pain in knowing another person
and locking souls together
as much as there is home-comfort
in finding that this person understands every smile and every tear
every move and every fear.


What we see, is what we are.
At times this scares us and sets us apart.
A lot of times.

The Missing Piece

Sometimes we throw it away so hard that it breaks,
Sometimes we bend to pick the pieces up one by one,
Sometimes we put them back.

I am not whole
whenever you go.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

The Best Bowl Of Soup For You

I have made you a bowl of soup.
Please, it's for you.
It is not much, it is not fancy;
but it's stirred in the best way I know,
with the last of the best spices I own.
Please, it is yours.
I will make more tomorrow,
and again the day after,
and again for all the days after.
Each time, each bowl will be the best,


Friday, August 15, 2014


We feel
As how we allow
And not
As how we're allowed

We receive
As how we give
And not
As how we are given

The Curious Incident Of The Hunt For Bread (In The Nightime)

There are things that you get to prepare yourself for;
practicing some new skills,
perfecting a move,
memorizing lines,
broadening knowledge on a particular interest.

Speaking of particular interests;
there are some things, on the other hand,
that simply do not wait for you to prepare.

These things, they come like a sudden gush of wind,
like a distant flash of lightning,
like a silent drop of rain.

I happened to be not only unprepared,
but unaware when it happened.
Looking back, it might have even been a state of denial.
But it happened nonetheless.

Alas, Love of great height and terrible distance does not bode well
with being denied for too long.
Any willful attempt of taking over the Heart ends up being a measly one.

And so there and here,
then and now I've been,
having fallen
into you.

Monday, August 11, 2014

His Mushroom

I've been found.

I've been found.

I've been found.


Sunday, August 10, 2014


Isi terluah,
Bekas terhulur,
Rasa dirasa,
Cita dicipta.

Gentar melilit,
Ragu membelit,
Niat terduga,
Langkah dikira.

Rasa dirasa,
Cita dicipta,
Rungkaian makna,
Di tengah cerita.

Sayu selubung,
Senyum berhubung,
Hati terbuka,
Jiwa berjumpa.

Lembut kasihnya,
Tegas sayangnya,
Diri merasa,
Cinta tercipta.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

In contradiction, love grows in strength. In confrontation and transformation, love is preserved.

"...Hunter and hunted meet and love each other. According to the laws of nature, one should destroy each other, but in love there is neither good nor evil, there is neither construction nor deatruction, there is merely movement. And love changes the laws of nature."

(The Zahir)

(Until The End Of) Time

Years become a fraction of a second
when put side by side with eternity
Where you
and I
make We.


Sunday, July 27, 2014


There's more peace and freedom
when a pair of eyes land on you and then quickly look away
than when they trail you until you turn around the corner.

There's much to see when you're much unseen.

Friday, July 25, 2014


Sesak dada
Luruh daya
Hancur hati
Serah diri

Monday, July 21, 2014

"Did you expect this?"

Kalau tahu lagi satu jam setengah mati,
Nak buat apa sekarang?
Nak pergi mana?
Nak jumpa siapa?
Nak cakap apa?

Tapi tak tahu.
Silapnya, anggap tak akan.
Jadi tak peduli untuk jawab soalan soalan itu.

Kalau tahu?

Friday, July 18, 2014

While We Are

Everything I am
So are you
Anything you are
I am too

Align us close
Before the war is over
And life moves under

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Right is Not Left

But there are nights,
Through blackness shines a light,
When you and I,
We will be alright.

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Left is Not Right

A day like today,
The Heart is heavy
And the mind's gone astray.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Some Smiles Have Been Erased

I smiled in someone's dream last night,
only to wake up grieving.

"She's a griver
My believer
It's not a fever
It's a freezer."

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Role Play #3

I am the milk in the pot.
And you are the coffee, black and hot.

We shall mix.

Saturday, June 21, 2014


I kneel and and bruise my knees
I reach out moving with the swirl
I do not understand why I'm not visible

To you, to you.

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Role Play #2

spreading across the floor,
seeping through the gaps;

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Un Mouseketeer Est Brave

"Captain, it is impossible to deliver a love letter.
The cat is outside with a big sword.
It's a big pussycat!
I could only get away thanks to my great fighting skill, Captain!
I'm too young to die!
And besides that, I'm chicken!"

Goodnight. :)

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Role Play #1

May I paint your nose
draw whiskers on your cheeks
and pretend that you're a cat?


Monday, June 2, 2014

Everything, Nothing.

Random, focused.
Brave, chicken shit.
Bold, blended.
Soft, tough.
Kind, mean.
Abstract, exact.
Smart, stupid.
Wonderful, horrible.

The world seems to know everything about me.
Yes, everything;
blacks and whites.

Very well.

Tell me how I feel.
Then perhaps I'll tell you how I feel about you.

Saturday, May 31, 2014


Why did they write
the greatest love stories
with the most devastating ends?

I wish to understand.

Friday, May 30, 2014

The Four Candles

When all is lost,
Cling on to hope,
Let it fill you,
Find your way back.

Monday, May 26, 2014


When people fall in love,
what normally gets in the way after that
is life
and reality.

When people fall in love,
knowing full-well of the past and present,
of life
and reality
There is nothing to take the love away after that.

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Ruang Lama

Duhai yang menghilangkan dukacita,
Duhai yang menghilangkan, hilangkanlah.
Duhai yang menghilangkan, hilangkanlah.


So I closed my eyes
and pictured a scene
without a face.
It was warm,
it was comforting,
it brought smiles into the space.
And in my mind
I thought it was real;
until I noticed-
The staircase to your bedroom.
The carpet in your hall.
The plastic cup for your water.
And turning around-
your face in the mirror.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014



Di antara yang mana akan kita pergi buat selamanya?


I searched for the line
But the shadow was too deep
Spread out that the colors are mixed
And you could not tell one from the other
I searched for the line
When I found the shadow
To be me

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Mentafsir isi Hati manusia itu
adalah satu pekerjaan yang
amat berat dan sukar.

Bukan kerja kita.

Apa lagi menilai dan feeble
attemps untuk mengubah.

Serahkan kepada Yang Berkuasa.

A Speckle Of Dust In A Gigantic World

Unknow me,
I have not known myself.

Know me,
Help me find myself.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014



Sunday, May 11, 2014

You cracked the biggest smile on my face
Without even meaning to.


Runtuh sudah
dari satu hujung
ke satu hujung
Mengundang sinar harapan
Bertandanglah hembusan nyaman.



"Yang zahir di mata
Belum tentu benar nyata
Yang zahir di hati
Pasti datang dari Ilahi."

Saturday, May 10, 2014


What I think I'm doing
And what you think I'm doing
And what I actually do
Are possibly three different things.

It takes one to reduce them to two,
But both to reduce them to one.

Friday, May 9, 2014


The cats and kittens that you have at home;
they just push you away don't they?
You share your food and bed with them,
and sometimes,
they just quite literally push you away to the point of offending your feelings.

And yet, you shake it off
and let them be.
You put the food out for when they come back;
you wish they come back early.
You feel relieved when in the morning
you open your eyes
and see them curled up at their favorite spot.

Why do we often fail to treat human beings the same way?

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Love And Sadness

Is it true that a piece that touches souls can only be created by souls that have been broken?

An eight-year-old child can create a piece that truly touches the hearts of people because this child understands something that most people do not.

And if you put this child next to others of the same age, more often than not, he has a sheer curtain of "depression" around him, just because he "knows" a little more.

I'm starting to understand this (and please, if you understand otherwise, do share):

We are living a life, bound by the End that remains unknown.

In striving for the Good End, we, all of us will get our souls broken countless times.

It is as if we NEED to get it as broken as possible, into the teeniest tiniest pieces, before we are ready for eternity.

And when put that way, a broken soul and a complete soul are one and the same.

It comes back to how we wish to perceive things, and whether we deem this life or the next as the more important one.

Is this the call to face with bravery the next unknown that is coming?

To rejoice in the deepest sorrow and dance lovingly to the tune of sadness?


Wednesday, May 7, 2014


Stranger things feel more common
As strangers close in
on the distance
(in between)


The moment you said
how much you disliked the dry earth
it started raining.

You would know this if you stayed on the grounds long enough.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Truth Without Logic

Thank you.
I've found a new liking for movies like Titanic and Breaking Dawn.

Saturday, May 3, 2014


Deep breaths.
No more.

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Future Plans

When you eat, I'll eat.
When you drink, I'll drink.
When you sleep, I'll watch.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Orange Skies

That which is heavy is the heat
As we keep on dancing
To our victorious defeat

That which is light is the heart
As the sky prepares for another day
And we prayed for one more start

Saturday, April 26, 2014


For almost nine years we looked up into the night sky,
Witnessed the seven stars, ever present,
Three, lined in the center,
Four, one in each corner as if to keep the former safe.

For almost nine years we looked up in silence,
Knowing little of what shapes and directions our paths would take,
Even less of what we would meet as we went along.

For almost nine years we stood there wondering,
About answers to no questions,
About emotions of no dimensions.

Everything has been timed. So perfectly that it fills the base layer beyond our understanding. Like eventually learning the names of the stars after years of anonymous admiration.

Saiph, Betelgeuse, Rigel and Orion are the loyal guards to the jewels Alnilam.

At its appointed time, things that are will not ever cease to be.
Right now, this is it.
Right now, it is this.


Here's a gun loaded with three bullets.
Aim well

Here's a cup.
Sit when you drink by sips of threes.

Shall we take a walk now?

Thursday, April 24, 2014


Mouth stretching wide
Teeth sinking into layers
Jaw tightening

How could I not think of you when I'm eating a home-made beef burger?

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Forward Colors

You could paint the unknown with a thousand shades of black
Then I would sketch a future with a thousand shades of white
That only showed
How much we didn't know
Not unless we tried

"Complete our colors,
Then we might share a canvas."

Light, However Dim, However Distant, Is Light, Still.

When you are a series of actions that proves myself wrong,
And I am a chain of consequences that affirms you.

We are still in the tunnel.
Tell me more about The Cave.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Lost Words

"And when I asked you how you'd been I meant I missed you more than I've ever missed anything before."

And that was where we left it.

When you're not here, the words unsaid have a way of fulfilling their rights to be heard, like a broken dam, unable to withold, unable to dictate the flow. Filling every space, washing away, mixing with the dirt from tears.

Is this how you'd leave it?

Wednesday, April 16, 2014


The softness and smooth curves took me by surprise.
For the sharp edges and bents that we swore we saw
Were simply not there.

Did you know this?

Tuesday, April 15, 2014


There is something about taking actions that feeling, thinking and talking can never match; that sounds from inside the head or passing through the ears can never compensate for.

Going on.
Walking in.
Working out.
Holding up.
Letting off.

To experience these actions first hand is the only way to progress, to grow. Doubts or hopes, from within or without, are often the invisible barricade that holds us back from actually taking those crucial steps in life.

There is no knowing what comes after that but there is certainty that we are closer to our finish line - whatever and wherever it may be.

How are you today?

Alhamdulillah. I am good.

Monday, April 14, 2014

Renewed Chances

Black is too dark
White - too light

The clouds are too thick
The sun - too bright

A curve is too bent
But when straight - too upright

What was left before
Now - we make it right

Thank You For Your Patience

What seems to be an odd patch
Where flowers may grow
With water
Seeping through the earth
Is my garden

I will not run away
Why I stay

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

I Must Have Known You Before I Was Born

I get chills running down my spine when I picture that high up there, our names have been written next to one another.

"Lovers don't suddenly meet somewhere. They're in each other all along."

Afterall, He knows best what is in our Hearts.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014


Pengadil telah mengesahkan borang yang diisi pemohon.
Permohonan telah diluluskan.

Hubungan pengadil dengan pemohon?


Thursday, April 3, 2014

"Obi Wan told me horrible things about you."

Sometimes a step forward takes you nowhere.
This is when you will realize that a step back will take you forward.

Thr Story

"The wind has blown me in this corner
And it's hard to let go."

Wednesday, April 2, 2014


Terlalu kuat suara mereka
Yang bersungguh sungguh ingin mengasingkan
Cinta dari kehidupan.


Tuesday, April 1, 2014


"Malted milk biscuits do not taste
the same without you."

"Nothing does."

Sunday, March 30, 2014

A Withdrawal Syndrom

How is it
that you
are not

How is it
that I
am able to see

Are you
in a dream?

Am I
in that dream?

do we spell
in such dreams?

Sunday, March 23, 2014


Look to the sky.
Look up.
Glowing Saturn and a past-half Moon.

Look to the sky.
Look up.
Ursa Major radiating the gloom blue.

Look to the sky.
Look up.
Let the Almighty inspire you.

Thursday, March 20, 2014


A voice that
In between sleep
Far-away truths
Amidst near nothingness

Wednesday, March 19, 2014


I hereby declare an invasion.

It blows my mind how a simple exchange of words - short, concise, immediate and direct - could turn my night around.

Heat melting into warmth.
Noise blending into harmonies.

Replaying, replaying, and replaying scenes until my presence shifts into the moment and the moment becomes the present.

There's no good trying to string words together tonight.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Iylia (A Preposition)

Air mata sebagai saksi
Parut luka menjadi bukti
Setiap nafas semakin pasti
Tertulis sudah kini lalui

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Monsieur Capitaine Invites Himself for Dinner

Like old receipts
crumpled by the fist into a ball thrown aside hurriedly to forget

How ridiculous the amount was
How impulse the purchase was
How unnecessary the goods were

Landing at the bottom of shelves
Hiding in the back corners of drawers
Sinking into the depths of cardboard boxes
But somehow never removed


Here are my old receipts, each representing a weakness
Unballed now - ironed out flat
With only traces of creases
Pinned up against the wall

Some amount has been recovered
Some purchase has been returned
Some goods - put to full use

Come not into my home with marvel and compliments alone
Hand me your coat
And look upon this wall that I've put up
And take your time
Take your time
For when you're done you will be perfectly ready
Not a little more and not a little less
For the best meal we'll ever share

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Zahir, The

Visible, present,
incapable of going unnoticed.

It is someone or something which,
once we have come into contact with them or it,
gradually occupies our every thought,
until we can think of nothing else.

This can be considered eirther a state of holiness or of madness.

(The Zahir, PC)

Achilles Heel

Retak hati-nya
Resah jiwa-nya
Tinggi angan-nya
Sunyi malam-nya

Friday, March 14, 2014


"Di dalam keramaian aku masih merasa sepi
Sendiri memikirkan kamu"

It is surprising that you did not notice how frequent your soul flew into my dreams every night.

Late Hours

As the darkness of the night thickens
The stars peek through not timidly
But intrusively through the fog
As you did through me
And I through you
At such hours of the night

Thursday, March 13, 2014


This mystery does not uncover its secret
Not when you drink from pleasure until you are drunk
Not when your head is bowed down and you weep

What do you mean to teach me behind that smile?

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Zebras, Mr. and Mrs.

Some say Zebras are black with white stripes.
Others say they are white with black stripes.

Where do I even begin?

It is mighty difficult for me to describe certain things. Mighty.

Including myself. For you know me better, both black and white.

And you. For the limited words that I know will not do the beauty of God's creation that is you, any justice.

And this? This. Without whys and hows, it is what it is.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Diam Diam

Diam diam
Jauh jauh
Tak bermaksud sunyi
Menanggung rahsia hati

Satu patah
Dua patah
Tiga patah

Diam diam
Jauh jauh
Bukan bererti sepi
Menunggu bertemu kembali

Thursday, February 27, 2014


If you kill, kill well.
If you slaughter, slaughter well.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014


When you believe in one thing,believe in it fully as if life depends on it.

There is no worth of bobbing around trying to secure a view of the "others". Immerse yourself completely in that belief, be it a dream, or a spark of hope.

Get drenched until the wetness feels dry.

Get soaked.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Love Only Aplifies, Only Love Amplifies

When we feel happy, it is because we allow happiness to fill us. It is not another person or things or events that make us happy, but what we perceive from it.

When we feel hurt, it is because we choose to run the water over our already-present open wounds. It is not you or them or the water, but what we decide to do out of free will.

When we feel Love, it amplifies both and everything else.

To Let Go of Sorrow

It is not in the present that your sorrow exists.
Sorrow is carried from the past, all the way to where you are now.
And it is the same sorrow that tries to slow you down or worse, shields you off from embracing happiness in the present.

Upon understanding this, you have come to a diverted path.
This is where you must decide.

The different paths might lead to the same end but this is where you must decide.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

There Can Be No 'Otherwise'

When Leia expressed to Solo
That she loved him;
He said, "I know."


Friday, February 21, 2014

Only God Knows Why He Made Us Like This

It is in our (sad but true) nature that we are never satisfied with our present circumstance and condition.

Example 1: Size
A: "Besar sangat lah rumah ni, penat gila nak kemas".
B: "Kalau rumah kita besar sikit, boleh lah jemput ramai orang masa kenduri nanti".

Example 2: Amount
A: "Gaji 10 ribu, tapi hati tak tenang". *sigh*
B: "Shit. Claim tak masuk. Makan maggi".

Example 3: Weather
A: "Urgh it's too hot here. I can't imagine how you can stand it day and night. I hate the sweating".
B: "Why is it always raining? Macam mana nak jog? Macam mana nak kurus..." (okay " nak kurus" dah masuk topic lain.)

Example 4: Work
A: "Takda manual ke? Takkan nak belasah je?"
B: "You expect me to read this?"

Jadi, Iylia Elena and whoever reading, let us take a step back and fully observe the circumstance and condition that we are in at the moment. Start where you are, use what you have, do what you can.

Kalau nak diikutkan rasa kurang, sampai mati pun akan rasa kurang. Letaklah kekurangan itu untuk perkara yang betul, dan penuhkanlah bekas itu dengan ikhlas dan bersungguh-sungguh. Sampai mati pun akan rasa kurang (i.e. "Ish taknak mati kat hospital, nak mati kat rumah."). Kejar dan kumpul untuk yang boleh tahan sampai lepas mati dan hidup balik.

We were born as human beings. Jangan ingat kucing dan arnab hidup senang. Selalu minta yang "bukan" dan yang bukan-bukan.


I have a shirt that says, "I wish I was a frog".

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve

You rendered me speechless with that beautiful smile. How could I even attempt to fill the air; when I knew that emotions are beyond languages?


When you love a person,
it is not because they are special.
It is because you are special.


On that night when everything was a blur,
It was as if all else were hiding behind clouds,
And I could only see you.

"Why are you sitting so far away?
Come here and sit next to me.
I want to talk to you.
I will listen to all that you have to say."


"'Ya Habibi' means 'Oh my Love'", you said.


This is my little secret:
On that night, I made a decision too.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Weak Limited Reasonings Lose Against His Will All The Time

Oh look, just look!
Look at what we've done now!

Oh Dear One won't you just look,
Look at yourself,
And pray, look at me!

Now state; did you possess any strength?
Now admit; did you own any will?

This mind holds
But weak
Limited reasonings
That has been loaned
Until His Will

Monday, February 10, 2014

All together now!

We're off to see the wizard
The wonderful Wizard of Oz
We hear he is a whiz of a wiz
If ever a wiz there was!

If ever, oh ever, a wiz there was
The Wizard of Oz is one because
Because, because, because, because, because
Because of the wonderful things he does!

We're off to see the wizard
The wonderful Wizard of Oz!


I miss you too. :)

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Dondang Sayang

Anak peladang pergi ke surau
Memakai baju butangnya tiga

Anak peladang pergi ke surau
Ribut dan taufan tidak ku hirau

Dondang sayang
Pulau harapan, harapan
Ku cita juga

Ribut dan taufan tidak ku hirau
Dondang sayang
Pulau harapan, harapan
Ku cita juga


Ease this yearning,
Wash away this longing.


Friday, February 7, 2014

Jangan (Terlalu) Menghampiri Aku

Jangan terlalu menghampiri aku
Aku hanya seorang penulis-
Bukan, aku hanya seorang
Yang sering cuba menulis

Jangan kamu percakayan kata-kata ku
Kata kata ini tidak membezakan
Yang benar dan sebaliknya
Cuma bahasa ciptaan manusia
Yang tersimpul bersama

Akhir nanti
Akan pulang ke Sana
Di mana tersimpan rahsia-Nya
Mungkin nanti
Kita akan berjumpa

Not You

I was full of you
When I heard the sound again.
And again.
And again.
But none of it was you. 


If it has been decided
That you would reside
Only within, only inside
Then so be it
It will be alright.


Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Untitled #2

"Where are you going
With that beautiful face
Looking down?

Don't hide away
You are like an ocean
That I can't see but I can smell
And the sound of the waves
Coming down

I am no superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero

But I do know one thing:
Where you are
Is where I belong

I do know
Where you go
Is where I want to be"

-Dave Matthews Band


A shape of yourself has been carved out from my soul
As I stood by watching you
Writing down neatly
Your name
On my heart
As permanent black ink on white paper

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Untitled #1

Telah ku sebarkan
hingga ke bucu empat penjuru
Rasa ini bukan milik-ku
Andainya kamu sudi
Nah, ambil-lah, ambil semuanya
Akan lebih baik untuk-ku

Berdiri di dalam gua
Bernyanyi, tapi tidak sekali bergema
Kerut dan senyuman tidak kenal beza
Yang ada
Cuma hati dan jiwa

Seperti ditemani pekat malam
Mengenali rahsia yang terdalam
Hingga ditegur dengan ucap salam

Angin membawa suara
Dan terdengar aku sebuah pertanyaan:
"Apakah ubat untuk hati manusia
Yang mencintai sesama ciptaan?"


Make them whole-heartedly,
Yet make them sparingly.

They are never made to be broken.
They are made,
Only to be kept
Only to be fulfilled.

In shaa Allah.

Friday, January 31, 2014


Being clothed in a garment that belongs to a person that you deeply love feels somewhat like being lovingly embraced by that person.

Subhan Allah. We are but His.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014


However deep the conversatations,
However sincere the words,
No matter the truths that are worth to be known,
The time for talking
Is over.

The time has come
To listen.

Monday, January 27, 2014


"Cerita ini tidak akan berubah walaupun ia tidak diceritakan."


Thank you.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Penyakit Yang Dipilih

Memperkenalkan penyakit yang paling sukar sembuh:

Penyakit tidur sambil menganggung perasaan rindu.

Oh. Ada lagi satu sebenarnya:

Penyakit terjaga dari tidur dengan perasaan rindu (yang, if possible, bertambah exponentially ketika terlelap).

Ubat ke mana, fitness ke mana.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Jaga Perilaku

Faith (or beliefs) can only be tested and proven by conduct.

Only by conduct.

Berbuat baik is one thing.
Tak berbuat jahat is another.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014


Kadang kadang perlu ambil masa.
Kadang kadang tak boleh buang masa.

Di mana beza, kamu tanya?

Ah. Berbicara seolah-olah kita punya kuasa.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

"Everything Will Be Fine"

When they say, "Love alone is not enough. It takes more to make a relationship work."

I shall just smile.

The list is endless if we wish to talk about what is required in making a relationship work. The chemistry, the compatibility, the tolerances.

Ah. But they are speaking of a different kind of love, are they not?


Love only for the Almighty and by His will. This way, then, Love is enough by itself. Beyond enough, this Love is all.

It is the water that nourishes the trees. It is the light of the Sun that blooms the flowers. It is the knitted clouds that cushion every fall. It is when imperfections are perfected and flaws are embraced. It is when hunger is cured by embrace and thirst is nullified by laughter. It is when "everything will be fine" holds true to the very end.

La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah.

Allahu 'alam.

Thursday, January 16, 2014


Let's take a moment to breathe.

There is a beautifully drawn fine line between being very stable and being the complete opposite.


I move across the regions all the time, as I draw and release my breaths.

I know now, that control over the turns of events has not been in my hands, ever; and for this I am glad.


Cast your best smile, as much as you can, please. We're all in this together. :)

Monday, January 13, 2014

Buncit / Perfect

Let each man takes after his stomach.
Because a woman will only fill it with her means.



Apabila sekumpulan anak anak Melayu merayu, memohon, mencela seiringan dengan slogan 'boikot produk Yahudi' menggunakan medium yang juga produk dari bani Israel.

Apabila suka berpegangan tangan dan melawan segala batas tetapi bersungguh sungguh katanya tak akan berkahwin kerana tak bersedia. Sedangkan sudah dikira wajib!

Apabila masa siang dan malam, dari Subuh hingga jam sepuluh,  dihabiskan untuk bekerja; untuk bayar itu, bayar ini, rumah itu, kereta ini, tetapi isi Hati tak terbeli...

*teguk kopi*

Apabila seorang coffee lover memilih 'fresh ground coffee', dan selepas seminggu, tak terkawal rindunya terhadap kopi segera.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Sepuluh - Tiga

Ada satu pengajaran yang nampaknya masih belum difahamkan ertinya. Terbitnya dari dalam fikiran; jatuh terus ke pinggir bibir dalam kata kata.

Sayang seribu kali sayang.
Rindu seribu kali rindu.

Nampaknya seperti perjalanan ini tak akan berhenti untuk menunggu. Menunggu bersedia sepenuhnya, kononnya. Peredarannya sama laju dengan fikiran yang disuarakan.

Sayang seribu kali sayang.
Rindu seribu kali rindu.

Sedangkan penantian mampu ditunggu, tibanya ia menantilah kamu.

P/s: Selamat hari lahir. :)

Friday, January 10, 2014

Let Me In

"Bring me a lily
And one loaf of bread
Take me home, now."

Do not leave your questions unasked
Yet all the while
Post not those questions unprepared
For truthful answers are the only answers
Yet all the while
Hurtful answers are the truth

"Maybe we could
Try to better this this time."

I shall ask you, then,
With my hand on my chest
Whether you believe
Yet all the while
That only so much love can equate so much pain

"So let me in."

Put me not on a pedestal
Where no one can reach
Only high enough
That I may climb down
To greet you
And that you may come up
To meet me

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Drying Rain

You see, when days like this one come along,
there is not much you can do to unfeel those
emotions and unthink those thoughts.

Have you ever gone through such a day?

Of course you have.

On days like this, the Earth feels drier after the rain.

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Time Signature: 3/4 (Diiringi Tepuk)

Ma-lam malam-ku-ba-gai
Ma-lam seribu-bin-tang
Yang-ter-bentang di-ang-ka-sa
Bi-la kau di-si-ni

'Tuk sekadar me-ne-ma-ni
'Tuk melinta-si-wa-wangi
Yang slalu tersa-ji-di
Sua-tu sisi-ha-ti