So much to see
When you roll them up carefully
Lips curving into a smile
So very slightly
Monday, December 22, 2014
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Manusia tidak punya kuasa
ke atas kepastian,
dan hanya ada secebis kemampuan
Apa yang ada pada manusia
Pilihan untuk terus mempertahan,
atau untuk merelakan.
Pilihan untuk terus dipenjara ketakutan,
atau untuk bebas mengambil langkah.
Pilihan untuk terus bermasam muka,
atau untuk senyum ketawa.
Sentiasa punya pilihan.
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Friday, August 29, 2014
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Friday, August 22, 2014
There is pain in knowing another person
and locking souls together
as much as there is home-comfort
in finding that this person understands every smile and every tear
every move and every fear.
What we see, is what we are.
At times this scares us and sets us apart.
A lot of times.
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
I have made you a bowl of soup.
Please, it's for you.
It is not much, it is not fancy;
but it's stirred in the best way I know,
with the last of the best spices I own.
Please, it is yours.
I will make more tomorrow,
and again the day after,
and again for all the days after.
Each time, each bowl will be the best,
Friday, August 15, 2014
There are things that you get to prepare yourself for;
practicing some new skills,
perfecting a move,
broadening knowledge on a particular interest.
Speaking of particular interests;
there are some things, on the other hand,
that simply do not wait for you to prepare.
These things, they come like a sudden gush of wind,
like a distant flash of lightning,
like a silent drop of rain.
I happened to be not only unprepared,
but unaware when it happened.
Looking back, it might have even been a state of denial.
But it happened nonetheless.
Alas, Love of great height and terrible distance does not bode well
with being denied for too long.
Any willful attempt of taking over the Heart ends up being a measly one.
And so there and here,
then and now I've been,
Monday, August 11, 2014
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Di tengah cerita.
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
"...Hunter and hunted meet and love each other. According to the laws of nature, one should destroy each other, but in love there is neither good nor evil, there is neither construction nor deatruction, there is merely movement. And love changes the laws of nature."
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Monday, July 21, 2014
Friday, July 18, 2014
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Saturday, June 21, 2014
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Monday, June 2, 2014
Brave, chicken shit.
The world seems to know everything about me.
blacks and whites.
Tell me how I feel.
Then perhaps I'll tell you how I feel about you.
Saturday, May 31, 2014
Friday, May 30, 2014
Monday, May 26, 2014
Saturday, May 24, 2014
So I closed my eyes
and pictured a scene
without a face.
It was warm,
it was comforting,
it brought smiles into the space.
And in my mind
I thought it was real;
until I noticed-
The staircase to your bedroom.
The carpet in your hall.
The plastic cup for your water.
And turning around-
your face in the mirror.
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Friday, May 9, 2014
The cats and kittens that you have at home;
they just push you away don't they?
You share your food and bed with them,
they just quite literally push you away to the point of offending your feelings.
And yet, you shake it off
and let them be.
You put the food out for when they come back;
you wish they come back early.
You feel relieved when in the morning
you open your eyes
and see them curled up at their favorite spot.
Why do we often fail to treat human beings the same way?
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Is it true that a piece that touches souls can only be created by souls that have been broken?
An eight-year-old child can create a piece that truly touches the hearts of people because this child understands something that most people do not.
And if you put this child next to others of the same age, more often than not, he has a sheer curtain of "depression" around him, just because he "knows" a little more.
I'm starting to understand this (and please, if you understand otherwise, do share):
We are living a life, bound by the End that remains unknown.
In striving for the Good End, we, all of us will get our souls broken countless times.
It is as if we NEED to get it as broken as possible, into the teeniest tiniest pieces, before we are ready for eternity.
And when put that way, a broken soul and a complete soul are one and the same.
It comes back to how we wish to perceive things, and whether we deem this life or the next as the more important one.
Is this the call to face with bravery the next unknown that is coming?
To rejoice in the deepest sorrow and dance lovingly to the tune of sadness?
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Saturday, April 26, 2014
For almost nine years we looked up into the night sky,
Witnessed the seven stars, ever present,
Three, lined in the center,
Four, one in each corner as if to keep the former safe.
For almost nine years we looked up in silence,
Knowing little of what shapes and directions our paths would take,
Even less of what we would meet as we went along.
For almost nine years we stood there wondering,
About answers to no questions,
About emotions of no dimensions.
Everything has been timed. So perfectly that it fills the base layer beyond our understanding. Like eventually learning the names of the stars after years of anonymous admiration.
Saiph, Betelgeuse, Rigel and Orion are the loyal guards to the jewels Alnilam.
At its appointed time, things that are will not ever cease to be.
Right now, this is it.
Right now, it is this.
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
When you are a series of actions that proves myself wrong,
And I am a chain of consequences that affirms you.
We are still in the tunnel.
Tell me more about The Cave.
Friday, April 18, 2014
"And when I asked you how you'd been I meant I missed you more than I've ever missed anything before."
And that was where we left it.
When you're not here, the words unsaid have a way of fulfilling their rights to be heard, like a broken dam, unable to withold, unable to dictate the flow. Filling every space, washing away, mixing with the dirt from tears.
Is this how you'd leave it?
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
There is something about taking actions that feeling, thinking and talking can never match; that sounds from inside the head or passing through the ears can never compensate for.
To experience these actions first hand is the only way to progress, to grow. Doubts or hopes, from within or without, are often the invisible barricade that holds us back from actually taking those crucial steps in life.
There is no knowing what comes after that but there is certainty that we are closer to our finish line - whatever and wherever it may be.
How are you today?
Alhamdulillah. I am good.
Monday, April 14, 2014
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
I get chills running down my spine when I picture that high up there, our names have been written next to one another.
"Lovers don't suddenly meet somewhere. They're in each other all along."
Afterall, He knows best what is in our Hearts.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
Sunday, March 30, 2014
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
I hereby declare an invasion.
It blows my mind how a simple exchange of words - short, concise, immediate and direct - could turn my night around.
Heat melting into warmth.
Noise blending into harmonies.
Replaying, replaying, and replaying scenes until my presence shifts into the moment and the moment becomes the present.
There's no good trying to string words together tonight.
Monday, March 17, 2014
Sunday, March 16, 2014
Like old receipts
crumpled by the fist into a ball thrown aside hurriedly to forget
How ridiculous the amount was
How impulse the purchase was
How unnecessary the goods were
Landing at the bottom of shelves
Hiding in the back corners of drawers
Sinking into the depths of cardboard boxes
But somehow never removed
Here are my old receipts, each representing a weakness
Unballed now - ironed out flat
With only traces of creases
Pinned up against the wall
Some amount has been recovered
Some purchase has been returned
Some goods - put to full use
Come not into my home with marvel and compliments alone
Hand me your coat
And look upon this wall that I've put up
And take your time
Take your time
For when you're done you will be perfectly ready
Not a little more and not a little less
For the best meal we'll ever share
Saturday, March 15, 2014
incapable of going unnoticed.
It is someone or something which,
once we have come into contact with them or it,
gradually occupies our every thought,
until we can think of nothing else.
This can be considered eirther a state of holiness or of madness.
(The Zahir, PC)
Friday, March 14, 2014
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Saturday, March 8, 2014
Others say they are white with black stripes.
Where do I even begin?
It is mighty difficult for me to describe certain things. Mighty.
Including myself. For you know me better, both black and white.
And you. For the limited words that I know will not do the beauty of God's creation that is you, any justice.
And this? This. Without whys and hows, it is what it is.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
When you believe in one thing,believe in it fully as if life depends on it.
There is no worth of bobbing around trying to secure a view of the "others". Immerse yourself completely in that belief, be it a dream, or a spark of hope.
Get drenched until the wetness feels dry.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
When we feel happy, it is because we allow happiness to fill us. It is not another person or things or events that make us happy, but what we perceive from it.
When we feel hurt, it is because we choose to run the water over our already-present open wounds. It is not you or them or the water, but what we decide to do out of free will.
When we feel Love, it amplifies both and everything else.
It is not in the present that your sorrow exists.
Sorrow is carried from the past, all the way to where you are now.
And it is the same sorrow that tries to slow you down or worse, shields you off from embracing happiness in the present.
Upon understanding this, you have come to a diverted path.
This is where you must decide.
The different paths might lead to the same end but this is where you must decide.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Friday, February 21, 2014
It is in our (sad but true) nature that we are never satisfied with our present circumstance and condition.
Example 1: Size
A: "Besar sangat lah rumah ni, penat gila nak kemas".
B: "Kalau rumah kita besar sikit, boleh lah jemput ramai orang masa kenduri nanti".
Example 2: Amount
A: "Gaji 10 ribu, tapi hati tak tenang". *sigh*
B: "Shit. Claim tak masuk. Makan maggi".
Example 3: Weather
A: "Urgh it's too hot here. I can't imagine how you can stand it day and night. I hate the sweating".
B: "Why is it always raining? Macam mana nak jog? Macam mana nak kurus..." (okay " nak kurus" dah masuk topic lain.)
Example 4: Work
A: "Takda manual ke? Takkan nak belasah je?"
B: "You expect me to read this?"
Jadi, Iylia Elena and whoever reading, let us take a step back and fully observe the circumstance and condition that we are in at the moment. Start where you are, use what you have, do what you can.
Kalau nak diikutkan rasa kurang, sampai mati pun akan rasa kurang. Letaklah kekurangan itu untuk perkara yang betul, dan penuhkanlah bekas itu dengan ikhlas dan bersungguh-sungguh. Sampai mati pun akan rasa kurang (i.e. "Ish taknak mati kat hospital, nak mati kat rumah."). Kejar dan kumpul untuk yang boleh tahan sampai lepas mati dan hidup balik.
We were born as human beings. Jangan ingat kucing dan arnab hidup senang. Selalu minta yang "bukan" dan yang bukan-bukan.
I have a shirt that says, "I wish I was a frog".
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
You rendered me speechless with that beautiful smile. How could I even attempt to fill the air; when I knew that emotions are beyond languages?
When you love a person,
it is not because they are special.
It is because you are special.
On that night when everything was a blur,
It was as if all else were hiding behind clouds,
And I could only see you.
"Why are you sitting so far away?
Come here and sit next to me.
I want to talk to you.
I will listen to all that you have to say."
"'Ya Habibi' means 'Oh my Love'", you said.
This is my little secret:
On that night, I made a decision too.
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Oh look, just look!
Look at what we've done now!
Oh Dear One won't you just look,
Look at yourself,
And pray, look at me!
Now state; did you possess any strength?
Now admit; did you own any will?
This mind holds
That has been loaned
Until His Will
Monday, February 10, 2014
We're off to see the wizard
The wonderful Wizard of Oz
We hear he is a whiz of a wiz
If ever a wiz there was!
If ever, oh ever, a wiz there was
The Wizard of Oz is one because
Because, because, because, because, because
Because of the wonderful things he does!
We're off to see the wizard
The wonderful Wizard of Oz!
I miss you too. :)
Sunday, February 9, 2014
Friday, February 7, 2014
Jangan terlalu menghampiri aku
Aku hanya seorang penulis-
Bukan, aku hanya seorang
Yang sering cuba menulis
Jangan kamu percakayan kata-kata ku
Kata kata ini tidak membezakan
Yang benar dan sebaliknya
Cuma bahasa ciptaan manusia
Yang tersimpul bersama
Akan pulang ke Sana
Di mana tersimpan rahsia-Nya
Kita akan berjumpa
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
With that beautiful face
Don't hide away
You are like an ocean
That I can't see but I can smell
And the sound of the waves
I am no superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero
But I do know one thing:
Where you are
Is where I belong
I do know
Where you go
Is where I want to be"
-Dave Matthews Band
A shape of yourself has been carved out from my soul
As I stood by watching you
Writing down neatly
On my heart
As permanent black ink on white paper
Saturday, February 1, 2014
hingga ke bucu empat penjuru
Rasa ini bukan milik-ku
Andainya kamu sudi
Nah, ambil-lah, ambil semuanya
Akan lebih baik untuk-ku
Berdiri di dalam gua
Bernyanyi, tapi tidak sekali bergema
Kerut dan senyuman tidak kenal beza
Cuma hati dan jiwa
Seperti ditemani pekat malam
Mengenali rahsia yang terdalam
Hingga ditegur dengan ucap salam
Angin membawa suara
Dan terdengar aku sebuah pertanyaan:
"Apakah ubat untuk hati manusia
Yang mencintai sesama ciptaan?"
Friday, January 31, 2014
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Monday, January 27, 2014
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Memperkenalkan penyakit yang paling sukar sembuh:
Penyakit tidur sambil menganggung perasaan rindu.
Oh. Ada lagi satu sebenarnya:
Penyakit terjaga dari tidur dengan perasaan rindu (yang, if possible, bertambah exponentially ketika terlelap).
Ubat ke mana, fitness ke mana.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Saturday, January 18, 2014
When they say, "Love alone is not enough. It takes more to make a relationship work."
I shall just smile.
The list is endless if we wish to talk about what is required in making a relationship work. The chemistry, the compatibility, the tolerances.
Ah. But they are speaking of a different kind of love, are they not?
Love only for the Almighty and by His will. This way, then, Love is enough by itself. Beyond enough, this Love is all.
It is the water that nourishes the trees. It is the light of the Sun that blooms the flowers. It is the knitted clouds that cushion every fall. It is when imperfections are perfected and flaws are embraced. It is when hunger is cured by embrace and thirst is nullified by laughter. It is when "everything will be fine" holds true to the very end.
La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah.
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Let's take a moment to breathe.
There is a beautifully drawn fine line between being very stable and being the complete opposite.
I move across the regions all the time, as I draw and release my breaths.
I know now, that control over the turns of events has not been in my hands, ever; and for this I am glad.
Cast your best smile, as much as you can, please. We're all in this together. :)
Monday, January 13, 2014
Apabila sekumpulan anak anak Melayu merayu, memohon, mencela seiringan dengan slogan 'boikot produk Yahudi' menggunakan medium yang juga produk dari bani Israel.
Apabila suka berpegangan tangan dan melawan segala batas tetapi bersungguh sungguh katanya tak akan berkahwin kerana tak bersedia. Sedangkan sudah dikira wajib!
Apabila masa siang dan malam, dari Subuh hingga jam sepuluh, dihabiskan untuk bekerja; untuk bayar itu, bayar ini, rumah itu, kereta ini, tetapi isi Hati tak terbeli...
Apabila seorang coffee lover memilih 'fresh ground coffee', dan selepas seminggu, tak terkawal rindunya terhadap kopi segera.
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Ada satu pengajaran yang nampaknya masih belum difahamkan ertinya. Terbitnya dari dalam fikiran; jatuh terus ke pinggir bibir dalam kata kata.
Sayang seribu kali sayang.
Rindu seribu kali rindu.
Nampaknya seperti perjalanan ini tak akan berhenti untuk menunggu. Menunggu bersedia sepenuhnya, kononnya. Peredarannya sama laju dengan fikiran yang disuarakan.
Sayang seribu kali sayang.
Rindu seribu kali rindu.
Sedangkan penantian mampu ditunggu, tibanya ia menantilah kamu.
P/s: Selamat hari lahir. :)
Friday, January 10, 2014
"Bring me a lily
And one loaf of bread
Take me home, now."
Do not leave your questions unasked
Yet all the while
Post not those questions unprepared
For truthful answers are the only answers
Yet all the while
Hurtful answers are the truth
"Maybe we could
Try to better this this time."
I shall ask you, then,
With my hand on my chest
Whether you believe
Yet all the while
That only so much love can equate so much pain
"So let me in."
Put me not on a pedestal
Where no one can reach
Only high enough
That I may climb down
To greet you
And that you may come up
To meet me